Crazy random things

So I am so excited that I am going to Kid Rock tomorrow! I love all kinds of music and cannot wait to see kid rock.

My birthday is coming in 10 days! My husband says he has a surprise. He is wonderful and the love of my life.

I applied for a teaching certificate. Anyone that knows me should be shocked. I am really hoping to teach middle school math. Something that brings me more time with my children.

My father bought a engagement ring for the women in Brazil. Thank goodness He did not give it to Her. Yet that is. I hope they are in love and it works out. I am really starting to feel better about the whole thing. I know my mom is in heaven with Jesus and would never want Him wasting away here.

Mother's Day still scares me. Will I make it through. I really want to celebrate her life instead of feel sorry for myself. I want to forget about the pain she went through and think about the glory she is in now. Just tell me how to get my heart on board! The days that really hurt is when my son begs to talk to her. I just tell him how much she loves him. He gets so mad that I wont let him talk to her it breaks my heart.


Last on the random list this book Red Letters that I am reading with the girls on Thursday am. It is really bugging me. I was abused by my bio mother as a child not sexually, mentally and physically. Any way I guess all the stories of child abuse really is getting to me. I never watch movies or read anything that has to do with child abuse. So this book is proving a challenge and I am just getting more anger with the people in Africa that I really have lost the compassion I think that the author is trying to bring. I really could care less if we save one of those men that are raping and taking advantage of starving, orphan children. I really think they should rot in there own hell. I see that this is not what God wants me to get out of the book, but it has hit something in me and it is all I can do to read the book. I am hoping that it gets better. Also the people are not stupid some are taking western medicine and still rape the 10 year old girls (same age as my daughter). I think I should try to understand from Jesus perception as in the good Samaritan He saved the man in the ditch and had no idea if he was good or evil we are all children of God. But at what point are people evil like the king that tried to keep the Jews in Egypt and they are not going to change?